Today has been a hard day. Saying goodbye to Toby aged 15 years 4 months wasn't easy :'(
It came after what had been such a positive week with Vodka, the baby of the family. And so I am trying to focus on what good has taken place this week to cheer myself up.
Last Sunday was a frustrating day at the last agility show of the year. Vodka's older sister Jade was all kinds of AWESOME, but lack of training time showed in my rusty timing and poor handling choices.
Rather than dissolve in a puddle of frustrated tears, I decided to really look at why I wasn't getting the training time I wanted with both Jade & Vodka. And I came up with some interesting answers.
What I found was that I was doing a lot of things that other people wanted and then resenting the lack of time spent on things that I wanted to do. But really who's fault was that? Without a plan of my own making, my life was being planned out by others.
I was reminded today that life flashes by in an instant when you're not looking. It was a shock to say goodbye to such a precious boy as it doesn't seem that long ago that we were welcoming him into our lives.
The reminder was powerful and apt - that if I'm not intentional with my time then it will pass me by and I might have regrets that I can no longer do anything about.
So I sat down last Sunday and went through the diary - marking out time for walking my dogs the way I want to be doing, slotting in training time alongside my teaching commitments and coming up with simple plans for what to do with the time I'd allotted.
I'm proud and pleased to say that those simple plans have got ticks in the boxes and I'm further ahead today than I was last week.
I feel like I've accomplished something by these small changes which has in turn had a really positive effect on my mood :)
Can I urge you to think along the same lines this week please? That if there's something you've been wanting to do more of, some goal that you want to achieve - that you actively lay out a plan for moving just a few steps forward with it this week.
It doesn't need to be great big giant strides. Sometimes the biggest advances come from the smallest changes. Occasionally it's just noticing that there's a problem (like I did last week) and stopping long enough to figure out a solution.
If I can help in anyway then please do get in touch. There's nothing more satisfying than helping people achieve their goals :)
Today I'm grateful for the dog-loving community of people surrounding me when I'm struggling with the loss of a very special dog. To be warmed with the comfort of people who understand that Toby wasn't 'just a dog', but a precious and important family member who's loss leaves a big whole in our hearts. Thank you all for your well-wishes, they mean a tremendous amount x